The purpose of the surgery is to reconnect her intestines back together. Yes it’s a great thing that they are doing this, but I'm also nervous about what is going to happen. We are soon going to find out what her future is going to hold. How her body is going to work. If her body is going to be able to function with almost half of her intestine gone-they removed 80cm she has 99cm left. Not to mention WHAT the doctor is going to find when she opens her up. When she did her last surgery she left some of the intestine that wasn’t quite 100% healthy hoping that it would regain blood flow and revive itself.
The things I’m dreading the most are….Saying goodbye to her before they take her to surgery. It’s going to be so different then last time. When she went before I didn’t really know her, not to mention she was in severe pain so it was such an emergent situation that I didn’t have time to think about it! The thing I’m dreading the absolute MOST is waiting in the waiting room while they are doing the surgery…I will try my hardest to NOT to let my mind go crazy with what could be going wrong!! I’m also dreading seeing her after surgery…she will be completely sedated and most likely have a breathing tube down he throat, pretty much how she was after her first surgery. It was different then though, like I said before I didn’t really know her…Now her and I have such a strong bond that it’s going to kill me to see her like that!!! They told me she will probably be like that for the first 2-3 days….The last thing that I’m dreading is the waiting for her belly to heal. Depending on how quickly her body starts healing will depend on when we can start feeding her and how fast we can increase her feeds. This all will be the determining factor for when we can FINALLY go home.
Along with all the anxiety we've been dealing with about this upcoming surgery, Rad ended up getting sick this week and is now on antibiotics. Knowing he doesn't feel good makes it even harder to be away from him As if that wasn’t bad enough, they stopped Peyton's oral feeds at the beginning of this week to rest her intestines for her upcoming surgery, so even though she is getting her nutrients intravenously her belly isn’t getting any food in it so she has been MISERABLE and starving.
Starting Monday I really hope things start turning around, I don’t know how much more of this we can handle!!
I <3 Her!!